Sed\u00edm na okraji sr\u00e1zu a civ\u00edm do propasti, kter\u00e1 se otev\u00edr\u00e1 p\u0159ede mnou. Star\u00fd lom, opu\u0161t\u011bn\u00fd a zapomenut\u00fd, ob\u010das snad nav\u0161t\u011bvovan\u00fd milenci, hledaj\u00edc\u00edmi klidn\u00e9 soukrom\u00fd, je nyn\u00ed tich\u00fdm sv\u011bdkem m\u00e9ho tr\u00e1pen\u00ed. Sed\u00edm a z\u00edr\u00e1m p\u0159ed sebe. Rosa sotva sta\u010dila oschnout, kdy\u017e slunce p\u0159ed malou chvilkou sv\u00fdmi paprsky pohladilo h\u0159bet star\u00e9ho lomu. Nevn\u00edm\u00e1m kr\u00e1su vzrostl\u00fdch borovic, majest\u00e1tn\u011b se k\u00fdvaj\u00edc v \u010derstv\u00e9m jarn\u00edm r\u00e1nu. Sed\u00edm a hlavou mi let\u00ed vzpom\u00ednky m\u00e9ho \u017eivota. Prom\u00edt\u00e1m si jeho \u00fatr\u017eky, jako zt\u0159e\u0161t\u011bn\u00fd, bl\u00e1zniv\u011b slepovan\u00fd star\u00fd film. O\u010di mi zal\u00e9vaj\u00ed slzy a hrudn\u00edk tiskne bolest, kter\u00e1 vych\u00e1z\u00ed odn\u011bkud zevnit\u0159. Hluboce d\u00fdch\u00e1m a vn\u00edm\u00e1m pouze hloubku pode mnou. Dno lomu je vzd\u00e1len\u00e9 asi dv\u011b vte\u0159iny letu. Je to hodn\u011b, \u010di m\u00e1lo? Nev\u00edm. Nezaj\u00edm\u00e1 m\u011b to. V\u00edm, \u017ee pro m\u011b \u017eivot ztratil smysl. Pro sv\u00e9 okol\u00ed z\u0159ejm\u011b spokojen\u00fd\u00a0\u00a0mu\u017e, zde nyn\u00ed sed\u00ed a slzy mu te\u010dou po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch. Jako mal\u00e9mu klukovi, kter\u00e9ho m\u00e1ma p\u0159istihla, kdy\u017e m\u00ed\u010dem rozbil okno. Nejsem v\u0161ak mal\u00fd. Jsem dosp\u011bl\u00fd mu\u017e, kter\u00fd m\u00e1 mo\u017enost volby a m\u00e1 volba je v tuto chv\u00edli jasn\u00e1. Vn\u00edm\u00e1m zcela jasn\u011b bezv\u00fdchodnost sv\u00e9ho sou\u010dasn\u00e9ho \u017eivota. T\u011b\u017eko byste hledali konkr\u00e9tn\u00ed d\u016fvod m\u00e9ho rozhodnut\u00ed. Z\u0159ejm\u011b byste ho ani nepochopili. J\u00e1 v\u0161ak c\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee m\u016fj \u017eivot se ocitl ve slep\u00e9 uli\u010dce a nen\u00ed cesty ven. Jako v siln\u00e9m z\u00e1vodn\u00edm voze se \u0159\u00edt\u00edm proti st\u011bn\u011b na konci ulice a v\u00edm, \u017ee nemohu zabrzdit. Slzy mi st\u00e9kaj\u00ed po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch a vzlyky cukaj\u00ed cel\u00fdm t\u011blem. Kde se stala chyba? Na kter\u00e9 k\u0159i\u017eovatce m\u00e9ho \u017eivota jsem zapomn\u011bl odbo\u010dit? Tyto a podobn\u00e9 ot\u00e1zky m\u011b pron\u00e1sleduj\u00ed posledn\u00ed dny a noci. Pron\u00e1sleduj\u00ed m\u011b v noci, kdy\u017e se mokr\u00fd potem bud\u00edm a t\u0159e\u0161t\u00edm o\u010di na pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd b\u00edl\u00fd strop. Pron\u00e1sleduj\u00ed m\u011b ve dne, kdy m\u00edsto soust\u0159ed\u011bn\u00ed se na pr\u00e1ci, zadr\u017euji slzy a tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edm se jakoby nic.<\/p>\n
Uv\u011bdom\u011bn\u00ed si ne\u0159e\u0161itelnosti m\u00fdch probl\u00e9m\u016f m\u011b dovedlo a\u017e sem. Na okraj star\u00e9ho opu\u0161t\u011bn\u00e9ho lomu. Sleduji okoln\u00ed krajinu a v\u00edm, \u017ee za okam\u017eik bude po v\u0161em.<\/p>\n
Jsem p\u0159ipraven opustit sv\u00e9 d\u011bti a \u017eenu. Jsem p\u0159ipraven opustit v\u0161e kr\u00e1sn\u00e9 na t\u00e9to planet\u011b.\u00a0\u00a0S\u00e1m, ve slep\u00e9 uli\u010dce, ze kter\u00e9 nen\u00ed jin\u00e1 cesta. Cesta, na jej\u00edm\u017e konci je tvrd\u00e9 dno star\u00e9ho lomu.<\/p>\n
Vst\u00e1v\u00e1m. Sta\u010d\u00ed jeden krok a je po v\u0161em. Stoj\u00edm nyn\u00ed na okraji hr\u016fzn\u00e9ho sr\u00e1zu a hled\u00edm dol\u016f. Poci\u0165uji stra\u0161nou bolest na prsou. C\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee nejsem natolik siln\u00fd, abych se odhodlal k tomu podle m\u00e9ho, nejlep\u0161\u00edmu \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed. Poodstoup\u00edm a slzy mi te\u010dou po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch. Pomalu se ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm a jdu lesem pry\u010d. Poci\u0165uji v sob\u011b ur\u010ditou zm\u011bnu. Jako bych prohl\u00e9dl. Vn\u00edm\u00e1m pojednou jinak sv\u011bt kolem sebe i jeho probl\u00e9my. St\u00e1le pln bolesti jdu lesem, ale ji\u017e nelituji sv\u00e9 slabosti, kv\u016fli kter\u00e9 jsem se neodhodlal u\u010dinit posledn\u00ed krok v m\u00e9m \u017eivot\u011b.<\/p>\n
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Epilog:\u00a0Nikdy neodsuzujte lidi, kte\u0159\u00ed se rozhodnou dobrovoln\u011b odej\u00edt z tohoto sv\u011bta. Ne\u0161pi\u0148te jejich pam\u00e1tku. Mo\u017en\u00e1 pr\u00e1v\u011b vy jste je zahnali do jejich slep\u00e9 ulice. Mo\u017en\u00e1 pr\u00e1v\u011b vy se jednou v takov\u00e9 ulici ocitnete a t\u0159eba budete state\u010dn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e j\u00e1. Lituji v\u00e1s.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Sed\u00edm na okraji sr\u00e1zu a civ\u00edm do propasti, kter\u00e1 se otev\u00edr\u00e1 p\u0159ede mnou. Star\u00fd lom, opu\u0161t\u011bn\u00fd a zapomenut\u00fd, ob\u010das snad nav\u0161t\u011bvovan\u00fd milenci, hledaj\u00edc\u00edmi klidn\u00e9 soukrom\u00fd, je nyn\u00ed tich\u00fdm sv\u011bdkem m\u00e9ho tr\u00e1pen\u00ed. Sed\u00edm a z\u00edr\u00e1m p\u0159ed sebe. Rosa sotva sta\u010dila oschnout, kdy\u017e slunce p\u0159ed malou chvilkou sv\u00fdmi paprsky pohladilo h\u0159bet star\u00e9ho lomu. Nevn\u00edm\u00e1m kr\u00e1su vzrostl\u00fdch borovic,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":13,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-331","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/331","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=331"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/331\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":375,"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/331\/revisions\/375"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/13"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vot.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=331"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}